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22 Nov 2015 Leave a comment
CNN is airing the documentary, “The Hunting Ground” tonight at 8:00. It’s about sexual assault on college campuses. I am about to watch it. I’ll let you know my thoughts afterward.
12 Sep 2015 3 Comments
I can’t say that I ever remember having an actual nightmare about my rape. Terrible thoughts at night while in bed, definitely. Nightmares involving my rapist, certainly. But not the rape itself. For this I am extremely grateful. I know several fellow survivors for whom this is a chronic symptom. I suppose I am lucky.
This year, I even managed to escape the “first day of school” nightmares. Ask any teacher, and you will find that this is a yearly occurrence. Panicked dreams where you open the classroom to find More
30 May 2015 2 Comments
It turns out that I am a better human being than I may have thought. Here is a revelation that I found out this past week:
I do not actually wish my rapist dead.
Good to know! Yay, me! More
02 May 2015 9 Comments
***Trigger Warnings: suicide, mental illness***
It has taken me awhile to write this post. I apologize for the length. It involves a long journey into my past and it was hard to get my feelings in order. I will have to share some more of my story with you for you to understand.
It has taken me a long time, but I have wrestled most of my demons into a fairly peaceful place. They are always with me, sitting off in the corner as I go about my daily business. But we have reached a tenuous truce. They can sit on the couch with me watching the TV, but I control the remote. Every so often, however, they lash out unexpectedly and change the station. We begin the battle all over again. More
02 May 2015 2 Comments
What do you do when your rapist shows up on your Facebook feed? Thankfully, mine is not on Facebook. But his friends are. His coworkers. A mutual friend once told me, “Mark says hi! He asks how you are doing?” That was one of the most triggering things anyone has ever said to me. It reminded me that he was still out there, living his life, going to work, chatting with friends. People were his friends. People who didn’t know what he was.
This video is is very powerful. Watch with care. The poet’s bravery shines through.
The accompanying article tells his story.
20 Feb 2015 2 Comments