(A special trigger warning applies to this post. Please take care of yourself.)
Survivors speak a lot about triggers. We use trigger warnings on everything we write, we say something triggered us, we apologize for triggering others. Trigger is both a noun and a verb. And triggers are the bane of our existence. For those of you lucky enough not to know, a “trigger” is something that brings out our memories of the trauma that we went through. It can be anything and it draws us back into the original traumatic experience. A trigger can bring on a full-blown flashback, or it can just set off a series of emotional and physical responses. Because they are so common an experience for survivors, I thought I would attempt to write a piece about my triggers to help others understand.
Triggers can be anything. Seriously, anything. A smell. A sound. A seemingly innocuous object. A place. An action. A time of day. Our friends and family are often baffled by our reactions to what appears to be “nothing” to them. Whatever the trigger is, for some reason our mind associates it with our rape or our rapist. When we are triggered, it is a very distressing experience. This is why we post trigger warnings. The last thing we want to do is cause our fellow survivors distress. A rape survivor sees the warning and can judge for himself/herself whether they are feeling strong enough to read on. It’s a “spoiler alert” of sorts. More